It
slowly dawned on me that 98% of my time on this planet has consisted
of...
- I am presented with external circumstances
- I assess how I feel about said circumstances
- I respond to those feelings in an appropriate manner
- Rinse and repeat ad infinitum
Previously, every
new day brought new challenges that had to be handled to my personal
satisfaction. I was buffeted from all sides. Needless to say,
given the amount of injustice and suffering in the world, I could not
keep up. Anger, sadness and frustration were my three amigos and my
behavior reflected as much. At the time, everything I
did seemed like a good idea.
It
wasn't...
Inexplicably, I always considered myself smart, but I never imagined there were proven strategies for coping, or that they were available to me. The easiest option was to numb myself ferociously. Yeah, that "seemed" like a good idea, don't judge me!
Long story short, a few guardian angels arrived (albeit fucking late) and provided behavioral alternatives which were safer, more effective, and waaay cheaper.
Two main lessons in my life...
Two main lessons in my life...
- I am in charge of how much traction any particular thought or feeling has on me.
- I wasn't as bright a bulb as I thought.
So now I spend my time walking and thinking and writing blog posts about stuff.
That seems like a good idea.
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